> I want to get out of this learning loop where I keep experiencing that I know nothing so I keep learning and I think I am good for it and then I apply for jobs and the loop repeats itself.
So? Just stop learning. Close that book, video, course. Go make something people want. Or you want. What would you like to make?
When I was about to graduate, I wanted to make an app for mute people to talk through their phone (Not tons of people know SL here) but my professor curbed the idea. Afterwards I didn't know where to start, and this is why I wanted to do a job so I could learn how real-life projects and things work.
But you are right, I need to get ahead my fear of failure.
Making something helps to get hired. Not only is it a show of expertise, but also an expression of your unique personality. What is more, I asked what you want to make right now. Even people afraid of failure make things.
If I am being honest, a living. No project comes to my mind at all. Just that I want to work. I love coding, can spend hours on it. If someone ask me to make something, I am all up for it. But nothing comes to my mind on my own. It's just plain numb at this point. A project that I have started working on is a scraper that will have Google Sheets integration and then I will use it make insights + some other plans of scaling this project.
So? Just stop learning. Close that book, video, course. Go make something people want. Or you want. What would you like to make?